WRECK.

I'm a wreck, I'm a mess. Life is just like aldjfalksdjf complicated and stupid. :l I often ask myself "why me?" I know there's A LOT more worse things in life that could be happening in mine. But I just wish I was like a normal 18 year old girl. No health issues, tons and tons of friends, had enough boyfriends, had your first kiss, actually went to a dance with a date. All that good stuff. Heck I probably won't even get to go to prom and def not have a date as it's looking as of right now. :/ Whatever. My family is a wreck too. Fights; lots of arguments. Drugs. My 28 year old brothers and 3 year old nephew lives with us. It's stressful. I have a bestfriend that lives A MILLION fricken miles away. And who knows if I will ever even meet him. It sucks. He's really the ONLY one I can be utterly and completly honest with. College SERIOUSLY, I'm about to give up and say eff it. It's so confusing. All the choices, life was so much easier being 5. Nothing to worry about. No boys to break your heart, No health problems, Everyone was your friend, Just about everything was perfect. I want that back now. I'm on homebound officially. Probably won't return back to school til the middle/end of April. It sucks. Nothing to do at home all time just results in me laying there thinking about stuff. I'm getting back surgery in a few weeks. But hopefully won't take long to recover and the pain will be gone. I can't wait to be "normal" again. I'm getting to know a new friend, and I'm kind of excited about it. I think we have the potential to be very good friends. I guess that's enough of me complaining about life. Sorry my blogs suck. WWW.FORMSPRING.ME/AMYLOLZ You should ask me stuff...