Here Goes Nothin.

I WISH;

I wish I was good enough for you.
I wish my head didn't think the things it does.
I wish my body didn't hate me and I didn't hate it.
I wish I didn't have a pain in my back all the time.
I wish I was 5 again. It was all good.
I wish there weren't arguments.
I wish people didn't lie.
I wish I was as happy as I look.
I wish someone actually cared.
I wish it was easier to sleep at night.
I wish things weren't as complicated as they are.
I wish I never lost connection with God.
I wish that things were like they used to be.
I wish I didn't have to wish for this much stuff, but I do.
I wish I could save you.
I wish I could save myself.
Sometimes I wish.. well you don't need to know that one.

I can wish but what's the point?

Confession.

The fact that you even thought about me today, makes me happy.

Rescue You.

I would do anything to rescue you, from the pain you're going through. You don't deserve it.. I wish I could save you. You mean alot to me.. ;[ I think about you everyday and wonder what's happening to you.. so many thoughts run through my mind.. I don't even know. Keep your head up high for me boo. I'll try my best to do whatever I can... I love you and miss you bestfriend....

Blogging Again? Maybe.

I miss my bestfriend.

Sticky Notes Again(:

PWC Fair. 2009.

I colored my shoesss.

Hershey Park, PA. (:

Myrtle Beach, Duck.

All Time Low Secret Show.

Warped Tour The Maine, My Husband

Warped Tour Chiodos.

Ocean City x2.


Drawings, Staying up all night!


Leaving Post-its in random places

Creepin on hotties[background]

I kind of stopped blogging.. for the entire summer. My summer has mainly been a blasttt. With it's up and downs of course. School is about to start back up joy. I guess it should be fun, senior year already. Time really does fly by. I can't wait to go to college and get away to my sweet escape. Maybe this year I will make more friends.. or something exciting might happen. Who knows. I sure do hope so though. I'm just going to recap my summer with pictures so yeah(:

Slacking.

Wow it's been 3 days since I've blogged. Slacking on this. Not like many people read it anyways. My life isn't much of anything anymore. I never feel like doing anything. This needs to change. Maybe if I actually had more than one person I hang out with on a regular basis that would change? Idk. I'm ready for a change, I'm ready to move ugh I'm ready for school to be OUT! Now. So this weekend nothing to exciting. Krystal had her baby on Thursday. She didn't get to leave until Saturday though. On Saturday I went to a little kid birthday party.. fun? Afterward I went to go see Krystal and Alana(baby) Btw, I'm the Godmother(: She's so cute! It started storming and I was like yay. I love storms can't wait until the next one so I can actually go outsideee. But yeah Saturday night I was just at home and Annie asks me at like 10pm if I want to go to Ihop at 12 so I said sure. We actually didn't go until like 1am. But it was great and hilarious! First off me and her were just laughing at everything. Taking pictures of our food. I imitated Annie and she thought it was soo funny and spit her drink out.. then next thing you know the people are bringing us our food. That must have been embarassing lol. Then Annie's like taking pictures of her hashbrowns and the guy comes up to us when she's doing that. Her mom was just like I've got some weird kids. LOL. Then these older guys like 21/22 come and get placed in the booth behind us. We thought we were loud.. they were like wow. As soon as they walked in they were like being all "gangster" so I was like YO GET ME A DRANK! Rofl. Me and Annie were trying so hard not to laugh at them but we did anyways & one of the guys was like "Are you laughing at me?" and her moms just like "I gotta laugh at these two" but we were actually laughing at them. Then they just kept saying the weirdest things like I got that russian chicks number, I'm gonna text her in the morning and something about a 12".. LOL. They also asked Annie how to spell cock. Do you spell it C O C K or C O C K E and is the E silent? HAHHA. It was so funny. I guess you just had to be there. Annie came to my house with her computer. She told me her charger was broken but I told her to try to fix it anyways. She tried.. but it like caught on fire and burned her. hahah. She was creepin on me while I was on my computer so I was just like FINE you can use mine. Then I crashed. Someone called and woke me up at like 5AM. I didn't know what time it was so I was assuming it was like 10 but nooo. lol. Annie bugged me to go somewhere with her but I didn't want to go. I love youuuuuu very much. RAWRRRRRRRRR.

What A Shame We All Became.

Yesterday.. wow. What a day. It started off wonderful. Except school, I hate that part. Went to church, loved that part! Haha it was well...interesting. But it was a good interesting. I got hit at church.. and almost hit again. Does that mean something? Sometimes I wish I couldn't talk or THINK. ugh. Everything's so confusing. If I see symptoms of something.. I'm gonna watch out more. So just to let you know I have my eyes open and I'm paying close attention. I may be dumb but I'm not THAT dumb. If I accuse you of something there is obviously a reason behind it. Not just because I'm in the mood to accuse you or not trust you. So yeah. Today was actually a good day. A little easy going. In photography I got to print out some good pictures and they made me happy. Photography makes me happy.(: Krystal had her baby, finally! She was sooo big yet her baby was only 6lbs 4oz. I was like dang she's small haha. I can't wait to go see her tonight exciting, exciting right? Oh, I forgot to write on Tuesday .. about what happened. MOST of the people at Osbourn High School are SOOOO rude. Like seriously? A senior/junior can't sit there and watch a 40 minute presentation without laughing the whole time. Or no even better let me laugh at a twin that was in a car accident, where his brother died and he can't barely talk now.. THAT'S SO HILARIOUS. No. It's not. I hate my school. If it wasn't my senior year next year I would probably go to Manassas Park High School. But yeah I guess I'll just stick with lame OHS... I'm adding some of my photography to here.

I feel ashamed of myself.... :/
I don't want to look at myself in the mirror anymore.

And their they go.
The
Tears
Rolling
Down
My
Face.

You did it. :(

Tables are turnin, My heart is soarin...

Something Amazing.

Haven't blogged in a few days. So I got lots to talk abouttt. Saturday was pretty amazing! Went to Hershey Park in PA. Went on some fun rides/rollercoasters. I was shaking in my boots hahahaha. Telikneses??! What idk how to spell that. CPA ALERT. If you don't understand what I'm saying that's ok I know someone who will... I got sun burnt and we walked around alottt. More than we rode rides which kind of made me and Annie mad but whatever it was fun! And a nice day. Afterwards We Went to Pizza Hut. Hilarious. I love my family!!! (:
I woke up. Cuz I was still upset about something else.

I think I hate relationships. ALL OF THEM.

FRIENDSHIPS.

BOYFRIEND/GIRLFRIEND.

PARENT/KID.

MOTHER/DAUGHTER.

BESTFRIEND.

All Of Them.

Waste Of My Time......

Why? You ask.. well you see when it comes to friends, boys. Whatever. They like sort of use me in a way. They be mean to me, they lie to me. They just tell me things. And I'm like oh yeah I believe them. Then later on I think about it. I'm probably one of the nicest people you could ever meet. Yeah.. I'm mean sometimes but it's like a playful mean. I don't actually hurt peoples feelings and if I do it's definatley not on purpose. People are so mean and rude to me it actual disturbs me. And people know that I forgive all the time.. I'll be oh it's ok. So they think they can do it over and over? I may forgive you.. but I won't ever forget it... Family life. I'm always listening to someone fighting, yelling or a baby crying. It's wonderful. So yeah that's about it.

Just Know That My Heart Beats For You.

Sometimes you make me want to rip my heart into a million pieces, burn them.. and let them out into the Ocean. Thanks...

Today has been pretty decent. It's Friday I'm superrr duper happy about that. Tomorrow I'm going to Hershey Park, PA. Whoot. My day started off bad, had this Latin test. Probably failed it. But then 2nd block my teacher was gone and we really didn't do much just SOL review fun. 3rd block went by really fast. We just did make-up work. I was planning on writing a blog in that class but I had to get something else done. 4th block Photography. I'm starting to enjoy class again. And I just bought two rolls of film going to take pictures this week. I love it. I love the way they turn out after developing them. I realized after I actually do the project and learn about it I want to go back and re-do it. Because all my first time projects suck. But yeah then I got a lollipop from my bus driver.(: In fact it was a blow pop. I love blow pops. hahaha. Ugh. I haven't talked to you much this week.. it's killing me. I miss you. I can't take anymore lies from guys.. Bleh. Maybe another blog later until then get at me.

I Know So.

What do I want to talk about? I want to talk about God. Tonight at church got me thinking and I wanted to write a blog about it. I want to teach you about God or help you if you want. The message was about how when people are asked if they are going to heaven the average answer is "yeah i think so".. then the person will ask why and the answer will be "because i'm a good person" just because you're a good person doesn't mean your going to heaven my friends. You need to confess to God.. what you have done wrong, the sins you have made and ask for forgiveness. It's the only true way to do it. When your loooking for something people tend to go to the wrong places for help. Maybe it's a friend to lean on, maybe it's a drug to take the pain away, maybe it's to cut yourself, maybe it's your mom/dad you go to. None of these are right, you should always go to God. Trust me he helps.. alot. I don't want to push God on anyone and if reading this offended you I'm sorry. I just want to be here for the people who haven't discovered God yet.. or need help with something because I want to help and God has put me here to do that for people. So if anyone has any questions you can leave me a comment and if you don't want me to know who you are.. make an account like annoymous.. idk if i spelt that correct. hahah. Anyways please don't be afraid, nothings ever to late and I want to help anyone I can. No matter what the problem I'll try my best. I won't turn anyone down. But if you are uncomfortable with me knowing .. just don't tell me who you are, I will still help you I promise.

You're not cool.

YOU'RE NOT COOL...

I'm going 4-Leaf Clover picking

with Christine & Mister.

Texxxt it. Later.