Valentines Day.
Today would be the day of love. Pointless if you have noone to share it with. If you read my blogs which I haven't posted one in a super long time but you know I only post one when I'm upset or something. Today was just lame. Just basically thought about things, mainly people. Two in particular. Everyday I think of how much you hurt me, but even though you did.. everythings still there I still can't seem to get you out of my mind or the feelings gone? Even if someone you love hurts you, you forgive them STUPID? WHY? Because we forgive the people we love and we don't want them out of our lives... It takes me so much strength not talking to you everyday. This past month has been horrid. We went from talking hours a day to NOTHING. And nothing is where we are remaining for now, I guess. Now number two. You, I like you. But it's also pointless to like someone if they don't like you back, I'm not sure I'm at a crossroads with you. It's confusing. I'm so confused and feeling depressed all the time. I'm pretty sick of it. When will all this get better? I hate all the distance issues. I've been doing things in my life that I don't usually do, tried to see if it would help anything and got nothing out of it. I did nothing today, wish I had a valentine, but I haven't for 18 years and I'm still alive so maybe next year... 
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